I haven't been here for a long while. I may not stay. If I find even one good conversation... I'll be pleased.
I'm not like anyone you've met (so some have said). True, I am a man, and I have all those man-things swimming around in my brain. But... so much more than meets the eye. Perplexing, intriguing, complex, yet... open, kind, and engaged in this world in amusing ways. I can also be challenging and annoying, though I really try to avoid that. Really.
I've lived long enough to assemble my unique collections of regrets and achievements, dreams and fears, adventures and ruts. I've raised a family, sent kids to college, cared for parents, and shared my life with dogs, cows, goats, sheep, parrots, horses, and llamas. All gone now.
I play music for friends and bars, but usually more to meet interesting people than the modest tips. I sketch, but more to enhance my perceptions than to create an art career. I love to play with my food... cook and combine in different ways, creating modest magic from apparently ordinary ingredients. And... I love the company of an engaging woman, a glass of wine, a flickering wood stove, and sound of rain.
I enjoy the moment where random events collide to produce an wondrous effect. I love to discover people who are connecting with their world in expansive ways. Awareness always seems to work better than preplanned outcomes. In short, I love to be pleasantly surprised.
Oh, and dashingly handsome and modest. Everyone notices that...
A woman's smile
And... I think about what I'm going to prepare for dinner.
Oh, wait... that was Johnny Cash. Nah, I didn't do anything THAT bad.
I can admit the most private thing, but I don't think you'd be amused. It doesn't amuse me.