So, my next big thing was finding bodytalk and being healed by a bodytalk practioner. I found bodytalk when I was 23, and even though I could meditate it helped me become aware of so much more about myself.
Bodytalk is a form of energy medicine and a very powerful healing technique. I immensely look forward to the regular bodytalk sessions that I get. They are the highlight of any week. I treasure all the realizations that I have had as a result of this work. I have reached a deeper level of happiness then I could have reached on my own.
Some keywords that relate to my lifestyle: eco conscious, environmentally friendly, awareness, intentional, spiritual, sustainable, sustainability, authenticity, spiritual awakening, centered, equanimity, mindful, earthships (a little something that inspires me), ecovillages (because it is nice to find ways to honor our inter-connectedness), empowered, and empowerment.
Some thoughts on being a good human: To be available to people not with your time but with your heart takes an openness, an acknowledgment of our human connection as equals. This openness creates a palpable space and is possible when the mind chooses not to accept or reject anything. This openness is the foundation of kindness, patience, and being humble. It makes me feel like a good human to offer this kind of space to another.
I am passionate, trustworthy, and honest
So, I want to be of service and am working towards that end. Becoming an elementary school teacher is my goal, but I dislike much of the process. I think that the most important thing for kids to learn is how to meditate, but I know that this is something we have yet learned how to successfully teach in schools. So, I have to find a way to fit into this culture to make a livelihood. What keeps me going is knowing that I am meant to pursue this calling. The recognition alone does bring happiness, even while facing all the challenges. (And it is a challenge to know that many more people will have to awaken to themselves to embrace the simplicity of a different lifestyle. Inner awareness is the only real remedy to societies problems.)
I mostly enjoy walking and bike riding but I also occasionally go skiing, white water rafting, and rock climbing. I play a little guitar but do not consider myself a musician. I like to sing but do not consider myself a singer. I enjoy many things.
I have been told that I have a small ego, that I haven't formed a lot of beliefs, and that I am present. But none of these thoughts should become part of my identity.
Eventually I realized I was bisexual but I have a preference for women.
So that is the end of my profile. Below are some added thoughts that I just didn't feel like deleting.
I consider myself a peaceful person, someone who knows that living with an awareness of the ego, the false self, means that you have awakened to the problem of misidentification. For example, when you are aware of your ego you find serenity in allowing yourself to feel anger but not BE angry---knowing that not making your anger an identity brings peace. In a world dominated by the ego, I know that sometimes the only peace to be found is the peace that comes from inside.