i don't even know why i'm here. i long for the kind of intense connections i used to feel to other people, but it's been years since i felt powerfully attracted (emotionally, not physically) to someone like that.
hi there. i'm doing all right. my day is going okay. thanks, i know i'm cute. i'm bona fide hot stuff, actually. no, men, i don't want to see your genitals, make out or do anything sexual w/you, you're a complete stranger. there you go, already answered 95% of the messages i get on here. i don't reply to messages that can be easily answered, in entirety, by any of the words in this paragraph. bring me quirkiness, have something non generic to say, dag nab it.
i like to cook when i can, enjoy talking and chainsmoking for hours over coffee or mixed drinks, love being in the water, looking at the stars, music, etc. i'm a good listener, compassionate and caring. i'm honest to a fault (but kind -- "brutal honesty" is, imo, often a euphemism for "emotional abuse"), loyal, trustworthy, and affectionate. i'm utterly guileless and basically incapable of deceiving others -- yeah, i know, but it's true.
also, though, i'm a broke, disabled single parent, struggling w/relentless chronic pain, barely scraping by, often wishing i could give up but it's not an option, prone to deep depression, and basically just a train wreck in general. i'm an insufferable SJW always trying to challenge myself, and an anarchist of unspecific leftist nature. consider yourself warned, then.
i am a fulltime breadwinner and fulltime parent, working online with every minute of free time i have on top of staying at home with my kids ... so i'm generally pretty overwhelmed.
when it comes to non-fiction, mary roach, mark derr, and dr. sears are some of my favorites. also - maxime schwarz's "how the cows went mad," lt. col. dave grossman's "on killing: the psychological cost of learning to kill in war and society"; and "ghosts from the nursery: tracing the roots of violence" by robin karr-morse.
pan's labyrinth, four rooms, dead alive, noises off!, the in-laws, club dread, cabin in the woods, clue, dr. horrible's singalong blog, the emperor's new groove (shut up), etc.
shows ... sherlock, dexter, superjail!, squidbillies, doctor who, firefly, arrested development, it's always sunny in philadelphia, portlandia, supernatural, the increasingly poor decisions of todd margaret, home movies, whitest kids you know (hit or miss tho), mr show, ... etc.
music ... omg, really? too much. there are still genres i haven't been exposed to but i love music. fanfare ciocarlia, marchfourth marching band, and mclusky are my very very favorite bands, followed closely by future of the left. ummm. atmosphere, asylum street spankers, crooked still, sepultura, black keys, no means no, big black, blue highway, immortal technique... lots of stuff, i dunno!
i love food. all of it. indian, mexican, spanish, thai, ethiopian, vietnamese, the list goes on. as long as it's not an internal organ ... or bleu cheese (blech).
adding one for my own amusement, artists: jennybird alcantra, fuco ueda, greg simkins, caitlin hackett, edwin ushiro, michael hussar, so youn lee, madeline von foerster, amy sol, tara mcpherson, jean-pierre roy, trustocorp, camilla d'errico, josh keyes, bradley kunkle
you want to talk about life, the universe, and everything.
you love high energy brass music, especially Balkan brass music, and want to go to M4 or fanfare ciocarlia shows with me for awkward dancing.
you have zero expectations. and no, that is not code for "you want NSA sex." not interested. if that's what you're looking for, please go away.