I keep thinking I need to add/change something on here, but then when I go to edit my page and I'm reading over what I got here, I never end up changing much at all... other then maybe what movie I saw lately or book I read... but still I feel that this profile will never really tell you who I am... I say what I think, and don't really care who's listening... most of the time but I still think you'll be able to see who is me if you really look, and if you laugh while reading any of this we probably have similar senses of humor... everything's a joke to me, but I'm usually very serious about it.
I am Mux. INFP. I am a very creative person, usually involved in many different artistic projects at a time (music, performance art, film, photography, art, zines, and tons of ideas). You can often catch me starting a sentence with "Oh hey, I had this great idea...." which is usually followed by some hair-brained far out crazy plan of how to taking over the world.
Currently I'm trying to figure myself out so I can write something here, lol... actually I don't think I will really ever figure myself out, and sometimes I'm tired of trying, so I think I would rather just exist, and be happy. Well, I sorta have the existing part down, and I'm still working on the being happy part... at least I think I exist, and so therefore I must exist somehow, right? Even if I am just a character in some story somewhere floating around in someone's head... wait! What if I'm writing the story, and living it all at the same time? You want a part in the story? Maybe I could write you in....?
But really, when I have a chance to just be myself and do the things I want to do, I usually find that I am pretty happy... even though I often feel like there's something wrong with the world, it crowds in on me at times and whispers in my ears "there's no point" or "You can't do it". But I rebel against those whispers, I yell "Fuck you, you whispers, I will do what I want, even if it might hurt me, even if it is hard, and the road is rough, even if I walk alone, and I never find love... I still have to be, who I am!!!"
All I know so far is that I am definately probably a lot weirder then most of you!!!
Ok, How about this... I'll make a list of things I like:
Smoking Pot (can you guess what I was doing when I started this list?). Watching movies. Music (everything from crust-bluegrass to stoner-metal, hard and heavy to soft and weird, swamp-gospel to experimental, indie-alternative to carnie-orchestra, punk to early rap, oldies to unknown... but mostly just weird stuff). Fruit. Playing music. Making movies. full time Road trips. Sardines. Doing all sorts of creative Art Projects. Having "Steak Night" with friends. Pirates, Zombies, and Monsters. Weird stuff. Old stuff. Weird old stuff. Experimental art/music. Indie & DIY. Finding artistically or musically re-usable random pieces of metal. Sideshow freaks. All weekend long sex. Giving cunnilingus. Driving. Daydreaming. Chinese food. Zach Galifianakis. Girls who perform on stage (music, vaudeville, etc. and I don't mean strippers). Top hats. My dog "Frank". Performing in front of a huge audience. Spaghetti Os with Meatballs. Swimming. Open mindedness. Paleness. Spelling words wrong on purpose and/or making up words that don't really exist. Being naked. Pasta. Reading profiles of cool hot girls I'll fall in love instantly with but never get to meet. Floating down the river. Trying new things. Huge rocks. Noise making toys. Circuitbending. Bubble baths. Blue eyes. RC Cola. Ugly stuff that I find beauty in. Cooking. Fireplaces. Making lists. Minimalism. Abstract art. Sleeping & Dreaming. Giving & getting, Cookies & Milk... Hummm, wow this is working pretty well... So OK, I'll add more as I think of it. Oh yeah, and someone just recently told me I forgot Snuggling!!! Yeah I like snuggling, wanna fight about it?!
Favorite meme quote: "For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
I am Mux, Mux I am, and I'd probably love some green eggs and ham! I like slacking off and being depressed and lonely, smoking pot playing music, traveling around the world, filming no-budget movies and stuff, painting pictures, taking photographs, writing songs, and stories, and getting online to archive my life which is my art!
Here are some links to some of my many projects and productions:
Mr Blank (solo band)
weirdness and wonder, experimental music and theater
Rat Babies (my band)
Heavy, loud, noisy, slow and powerful
JOKER JOKER Gallery
Alternative performances and art gallery space that I run
Moonlight Gypsy Market
Bi-annual weirdo art, craft and performance festival in Athens GA
Street theater character I created and perform as occasionally
Some older projects I used to produce:
The Jerkoff Bros
Skit comedy show
The Wonderous Adventures of Mr Blank
Blog of my travels and random life tidbits
Mr Blank Weird & Wandering Sideshow
Experimental music and performance art
But... I am really just boring, weird, creative, lost, and forlorned
Until recently I was living on a bus, for about 5 years in fact, but recently I have moved into a house in Athens. I still have the school bus and once it is fixed up I may reserve the right to move back in and hit the road again... bought a school bus awhile back and I've been slowly renovating it into more of a home on wheels. The renovations aren't quite done yet, it's a slow process, but I've been traveling alittle and living in the bus full time... mostly touring with one of my many projects... In fact I take a couple month long trips around the southeast mostly, but I go north every chance I get too, I booked gigs ahead of time and then hit the road performing my Music or Sideshow from town to town in front of wide-eyed and shocked onlookers everywhere I go, its alot of fun, but now I'm trying to figure out whats next... all I know so far is that I'm not going back to work at the pizza place, I'm trying to live off of next to nothing while doing what I love, and seeing the world through different lenses. I figure if I work for myself as much as I would work a normal job then maybe I can progress toward meeting my goals in life. Now that I'm in a house none of this has changed, yes I do now have an added detail of a few bills to pay but I found an awesome deal, an awesome hole in the wall house, that I can afford with very little "money making" effort! And I have awesome shows/parties a couple times a month with bands and artists doing their thing! (Mostly experimental forms of art and music though) Some of the things I'm involved in are:
I sing and play Bass in a band called Rat Babies. I have a solo Experimental Music and Performance Art project called Mr Blank. I recently opened an alternative music and art gallery space out if my home called the "JOKER JOKER Gallery" and we have music shows, art showings, and fun events all the time... And this year I will be doing more fine arts, crafts, music recording, film production, etc here with the space I now have. I also organize big events like my bi-annual (spring/fall) arts& craft festival called the Moonlight Gypsy Market in Athens Ga!!!
Somethings I only do now and then, or used to be involved in:
I performed sideshow as "Mr Blank's Weird & Wandering Sideshow" which is a vaudevillian-punk show of carnivale sideshow stunts and burlesque skits. I use to organize a bigger carny troupe out of Athens called "Mr Blank's Carnivale of Black Hearts"... seriously! It's a Carnivale Freak show themed vaudevillian style variety show with all sorts of performers (ie: Bellydancers, Burlesque, Sideshow Freaks, Contortionists, Trapeze and Silks Aerialists, Human Blockheads, Bearded Lady, Clowns and Mimes, and so much more) I am the Owner, Promoter, Rabblerouser, Human Blockhead, Stuntman and Bearded Lady for the show, we went on hiatus but may return with a brand new show soon. I was part of a group of three guys working on an amature skit comedy show called The Jerkoff Bros. I designed Sets and Backgrounds, Costuming, did Body Painting and more for a well known Photographer out of Athens who works mostly with Suicide Girl & Model Mania type shoots and also for my own Performance Art projects, I do Abstract Photography, and would like to get into more film-making projects... and I even build my own Pinhole Polaroid Camera once...
...and then of course when I'm not working on any of that I'm sitting at home smoking a lot of pot all alone and all by myself, feeling worthless and lost in the world, wishing I had someone to cuddle with, lol... wanna join me?
Update: I was just featured in a Modest Mouse music video that just got released for their brand new album [March '15]
And a 2015 documentary on the Athens music scene called "A Peculiar Noise" which will hopefully be released and should be hitting the film festivals soon!
I can count to ten, say "goodnight" and "I love you very much" in Croatian (yes that's a real language), but not really good so maybe I shouldn't include that?
I love interesting books but don't read them as much as I wish I did. I love all kinds of movies and music, whatever inspires me to feel something. I love eating and cooking all kinds of foods. Last books I read recently and enjoyed were "Stardancer" a scifi novella from the 70's, Earnest Hemingway's "The Old Man and the Sea" and "The Invisible Man" by HG Wells, before that I read "Geek Love", "Midnight Circus", "The Plague" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Plague) "Goodbye 20th Century - a biography on Sonic Youth" cause I love that band soooo much, "Freak Like Me" and "Snake Oil: Life's Calculations, Misdirections, And Manipulations " by Jim Rose, "Alice In Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass", cause I have never read it before, but I love the story. Hunter S Thompson, Neil Gaiman, Anne Rice, Chuck Palahniuk...
Last most awesome movie I saw... well lately I've been re-watching anything I can get cause I haven't had internet or a dvd player... but the last really cool movie/documentary I saw was "The Floating Neutrinos" about a homeless guy who built a raft out of trash to sail the Atlantic... pretty damn inspiring.
Food is awesome... I love it all!
From My Facebook Profile:
Movies: A Peculiar Noise, Goonies, Gremlins, All the superhero movies, There Will Be Blood, Athens, GA/Inside-Out, Slow Southern Steel, Alice in Wonderland, Where the Wild Things Are, The John Searl Story, The Floating Neutrinos, Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind, Fight Club, Movies with Zombies, Aliens, Pirates, etc
TV Shows: Wilfred, The Walking Dead, Dextor, Curb Your Enthusiasm, Everything [adult swim], Lost, Twin Peaks, Tim and Eric Awesome Show - Great Job!, Twin Peaks, Carnivale, Robot Chicken, Weeds, Breaking Bad, My Name is Earl, Beavis and Butthead, Death Valley, The State, Whitest Kids U'Know, Monty Python's Flying Circus, Star Trek.
Music: Rat Babies, Mr Blank, Wendy & Carl, Flying Saucer Attack, Magnetic Fields, PJ Harvey, My Bloody Valentine, Unknown Hinson, Deadbolt, Mastodon, Pink Floyd, Nine Inch Nails, The Extraordinary Contraptions, Rat Babies, LET THE NIGHT ROAR, Music Hates You, PANDHA PIRANHA, Daffodil, Akris, SMOKEDOG, The Emotron, Forbidden Words, Sh!tty Candy and the Circus Peanuts, Nirvana, Weedeater, Leonard Cohen, David Bowie, MASERATI, EYEHATEGOD, Tom Waits, Mathematicians, Lightning Bolt, the Melvins, Subrig Destroyer, MAN OR ASTRO-MAN?, Hank III, Pride Parade, X (the band), Hope For Agoldensummer, Ford Theatre Reunion, Sonic Youth, The Jesus Lizard, Neutral Milk Hotel, Johnny Cash, Björk, Harvey Milk, Liz Phair, KMFDM BAND, Garbage, Old Crow Medicine Show, Squirrel Nut Zippers, Social Distortion, The Clash, Rob Zombie, Mike Ness, Hellblinki, Mose Giganticus, mc chris, Gogol Bordello, The Cure, The Sugarcubes, Joy.Division, Fiona Apple, Courtney Love, Hole, Thurston Moore, Whores., Black Skies, The Misfits, Dead Kennedys, Minor Threat, Ministry, Skinny Puppy, Siousxie, Faith and The Muse, Tricky, Massive Attack, Tori Amos, Manson, Bjork, Portishead, Swank Sinatra... Damn, so many!
cool! This importing stuff from Facebook option makes things so easy!
Food. Food is really the only thing anyone really needs well that and Air, but air is free still.
Creating. I cant help it, i need to create all the time, this means i usually have a couple notebooks within reach to write in, jot down ideas, make lists, draw and sketch in. Or I've got some broken instrument to make noise on...
Love. This is one of those things I can't live without, well I do live without it right now, hence why I have a profile on okc, but living without love isn't really living!
Hope. When hope runs totally dry I will be broke down on the side of the rd in the middle of the middle of nowhere, right now my hope gauge is reading "low fuel" so I know I'm going to need a fill up soon... Cause I need at least a little hope to keep going hoping that one day I will find that one thing I can't live without... Love.
Glasses/contacts. I might not recognize you without this one... I've got bad eyesight. And since I'm a night person this also means I need sunglasses too, but since I can't afford contacts I have to do without the sunglasses most of the time, unless I manage to find a pair that will fit over my glasses comfortably.
Also I think about how there is really no purpose to life at all, none what so ever, except: to live it! It's kind of depressing to think that sometimes, but also it's very freeing, frees me up to do what I think will make me happy and in turn make others happy as well... which kinda leads me to thinking about what project I would like to be working on next... cause I'd like to do more, travel more, play more music in different cities, living out of my school bus for years while going place to place... where ever the road takes me...
which bring me back to thinking about a relationship and how nice it would be to have a (travel) partner in crime (will you be my P.I.C!?!)... but I'm not looking for a follower, I want to be with someone who would be living this lifestyle without me had we not left together. But even if your not living the same life style I live, you'd have to at least dream of it, I'm not ready to stop being myself and doing what I do for anyone, I want someone to work with on projects, not someone telling me to give up on my dreams!
oh and recently I've been thinking about the suggestions over to the right of the page, the one that suggests "similar users"... I wonder what kind of suggestions they are giving you right now... are they kinkier, more spiritual, more adventurous..??? cause I could never know...
Here's something else: I get on this site to browse... but I'm too much of a wuss to actually contact anyone unless I feel there is something I can write that won't make me feel more like the looser then I already feel I am. I would much rather (prefer) someone contacted me first, that at least shows you're interested... unless you're seriously a christian or something... in that case fuck off! Most of the time I hope that me coming to your profile (see "visitors") counts as me making the first move, lol.
But I think the most private thing I can mention, related to this site, is that: I have had my profile up on here for years, and I've had very few girls initiate a conversation with me and I've never met anyone from here yet... and that make me sad cause I think I'm pretty cool. but its OK cause I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea... so really I'm putting it all out there hoping to find that right person... not into dating... I'm into adventurizing!!
But yeah, if you think big bearded guys are sexy, then by all mean contact me and I'll come over and tickle you with my beard!
Also no religious freaks what so ever! I don't believe in those kind of fairy tales anymore.
I prefer someone without kids. Not that I don't love kids, cause I do, but kids are too distracting when getting to know someone... and with the plans I have for my life most people don't want to travel the world while living in a bus if they have kids. But I do like kids, and if you think you'd really like me, or I'd really like you... then you should still at least say hi!
Also for those of you who got this far and plan to skip on to the next profile without saying hi... that's just rude! At least say bye when you leave so I know to lock the door behind you.
Oh and if you're a tattoo artist, get a hold of me, I need some bad!