26 Baton Rouge, United States
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My self-summary
note: IN A RELATIONSHIP with a lovely lady so let's be pals and take pictures and shit instead. If you're only interested in sex or in romantic relationships, please mosey on to another profile. If, however, you are amenable to making A COMPLETELY PLATONIC FRIEND, keep reading.

This Package Contains (if any of the following describes a person in opposition to your preferred companion/fellow hellraiser, please move along):

avid reader (BOOKS > VIDEO GAMES, BOOKS / VIDEO GAMES, BOOKS. OVER. VIDEO GAMES.) anime-strongly-disliker. drinker. nonreligious. mentally ill (working on coping). NOT INTO WATCHING OR CHEERING FOR OR SPORTING MEMORABILIA FOR SPORTS.

genderqueer, NOT girl and NOT boy. please LOOK IT UP, ASK AROUND, EDUCATE YOURSELF. currently overweight. working on it (what a frustrating process good lord)

pro-choice about essentially everything, from abortion to sexual partners (including number of) to labels. (i like labels. i just don't like inaccurate labels.)

kinky switch (once more, with feeling: LOOK IT UP, ASK AROUND, EDUCATE YOURSELF.) judgmental (read: loudly opinionated, not always negatively but often.)

this list is incomplete so that you have things to learn and to give me room to add and remove as i grow/change my mind about which labels are most important to serve up first. take heed. i will not show respect or politeness whatsoever to those who do not pay attention to what is written in my profile. especially since reading is my shit so if you're too lazy to do that, well, you don't need to be trying to talk to me anyway.
What I’m doing with my life
i'm trying to determine what is important in my self (not myself, but My Self) to keep and what i need to discard in order to better my life.
i then confuse, frighten and anger myself trying to determine how to achieve that betterment.

mostly i'm working and drinking and quitting drinking and resuming drinking and reading and reading and reading and reading and
I’m really good at
contradicting myself. confusing myself. making it too complicated, overthinking it, etc. noticing patterns ("every car in this row is a toyota camry from a different year!"). giving personalized gifts.
i'm sort of good at singing, writing and taking pictures too but i'm really shy about those things.
The first things people usually notice about me
i guess my hair. i prefer it to be messy, so it often is.
um. other than that i actually don't know. i'm loud when i'm comfortable so maybe that.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
THIS IS THE LONG PART. I AM NOT SORRY. If you are capable of reading but don't we probably will not have much in common. Especially if you don't read because it "takes too long" or you actually use "TL;DR" in earnest (that is, you seriously mean it when you use it)

BOOKS: note: i. love. historical. fiction. especially if it's set during World War II.

the fountainhead.
love walked in.

most anne rice vampire books are a go.
a density of souls and the snow garden.

young adult fiction like sarah dessen, francesca lia block, david levithan, rachel cohn.
e.e cummings' works. the sandman series.
verses that hurt.
Poems 4 A.M.
Phoenix Poetry (Baudelaire) even though that doctor was confused that someone my age was reading it at that time.

i liked John Green before it somehow became cool. shit yeah, i'm now a hipster.

Any book featuring Aloysius Pendergast.

James Rollins.

almost anything to do with personal perspectives of WWII-- diaries of Holocaust victims or stories dealing with the Holocaust like Number the Stars or Night or I Lived a Thousand Years or Sophie's Choice or Soldier X or...yeah, i could go for a while.

rock (tool, a perfect circle, puscifer (anything maynard james keenan touches i'll probably love), robin trower, huey lewis and the news, editors, mew, ra ra riot, the shins, dave matthews band, led zeppelin)
classical (philip glass, ottorino respighi, vivaldi)
whatever parov stelar is
electronic/house similar tostromae
whatever john mayer is
hip-hop (digable planets)
R&B like Sade, Kevon Edmonds, Jill Scott, Goapele...
music in european languages (kaizers orchestra)
countryish (rascal flatts, dixie chicks, randy travis, alan jackson)

i like a tiny bit of j-pop. and j-rock. not much at all though, because i find asian languages dysphonic as hell.

MOVIES: hm. that's more difficult to answer. one of my favorites is no reservations. boys don't cry, august rush, factory girl, evening, talk to me, the avengers movie and avengers: age of ultron. the collection. you're next. now is good. Saw.

FOOD: zesty/"southwestern" food. my mom's gumbo. tomato basil soup. zucchini. pizza. salmon teriyaki. artisan cheeses.

(did you really read this far? i might quiz you.)
The six things I could never do without
it's probably unhealthy or something to say you couldn't do without your significant other(s) but i mean, in a way, i couldn't. so: my stoof.
books. movies. words. music. lists. my mom. structure. organization in chaos. the ability to think. fingers. cameras. notebooks to write in. black ink pens. stationery to write letters. choices. kinky people. let's be honest, some small amount of alcohol (while my consumption has decreased considerably, i am still what i am).
I spend a lot of time thinking about
myself, really. sex. self expression. work. what i want in a relationship. what i want for myself/my life. kink. my mom and if she is okay.
how i want to decorate my apartment.
whether i will ever fall into feeling like i am a part of any of the -isms of the modern day, or will i just forever feel alone in some ways?
why it's necessary to not feel alone in one's beliefs and values.
how to transcend the need to not be alone in one's beliefs and values.

my strange fear of people's reactions to my opinions, especially since i refuse to change those opinions so that i don't have to fear opinion...? contradiction, seems like.

On a typical Friday night I am
reading. doing internet things. reading! talking to my girlfriend. reeeaaaading. playing Pokemon. playing Sims. playing Sims and Pokemon while talking to my girlfriend and doing internet things in between reading.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
i have a bad habit of sabotaging potential social connections due to a terror of further rejections (read: i am afraid that the more of me you know the less of me you will like as a result of past experience), and i don't let shit go easily. be patient and be brave; i need you to.
You should message me if
you read more than you play video games. seriously, does anyone else read voraciously anymore? am i alone? hello? is this thing on?