riddled with social anxiety, please keep that in mind. i want to make friends, but shit's hard. it really is.
p.s. i am not laid back or down to earth. let's be honest. i can be silly and immature as hell, but i'm also uptight as fuck and far too judgmental for your own good.
+ makeup art
+ pokemon (on 3DS and also Pokemon Go, in which the boy and i are both proud members of Team Mystic. MYSTIC REPRESENT!)
+ RPGs (AKA I spend too much time on Skyrim)
+ moderate, responsible drug use
+ writing, poetry, writing poetry
+ photography (i take pictures let's take pictures!)
+ fighting the good fight against people who think grammar isn't important anymore
+ listening to music. favorite band is tool.
+ kink/BDSM and kinky play, but not with you
+ loads of other things, PLEASE feel free to ask since another interest of mine is
+ talking about myself, if i feel like the other person is actually interested and not annoyed or pretending an interest. oh, and
+ writing letters. real ones, not digital. as in, on paper, sent through the mail (snail mail and penpals!)
that coupled with the other sections of this profile should give you stuff to talk with me about, so go ahead.
Have you ever heard the MUTEMATH song "Typical"?
I don't look like it, or talk like it much, or act like it much so you probably wouldn't know it from hanging around me because I tend to keep those thoughts to myself, but that song, "No Response" and "Walking Paranoia" (all three are MUTEMATH songs) combined pretty much sum up the answer to this question.
noticing patterns ("every car in this row is a toyota camry from a different year!"). giving personalized gifts.
i'm sort of good at singing, writing and taking pictures too but i'm really shy about those things.
BOOKS: note: i. love. historical. fiction. especially if it's set during World War II.
love walked in.
most anne rice vampire books are a go.
a density of souls and the snow garden.
young adult fiction like sarah dessen, francesca lia block, david levithan, rachel cohn.
e.e cummings' works. the sandman series.
verses that hurt.
Poems 4 A.M.
Phoenix Poetry (Baudelaire) even though that doctor was confused that someone my age was reading it at that time.
i liked John Green before it somehow became cool. shit yeah, i'm now a hipster.
Any book featuring Aloysius Pendergast.
almost anything to do with personal perspectives of WWII-- diaries of Holocaust victims or stories dealing with the Holocaust like Number the Stars or Night or I Lived a Thousand Years or Sophie's Choice or Soldier X or...yeah, i could go for a while.
MUSIC: genres/examples (IMPORTANT: THIS IS NOT A COMPLETE LIST, ask for more!)
rock (tool, a perfect circle, puscifer (anything maynard james keenan touches i'll probably love), robin trower, huey lewis and the news, editors, mew, ra ra riot, the shins, dave matthews band, led zeppelin, MUTEMATH)
classical (philip glass, ottorino respighi, vivaldi)
whatever parov stelar is
electronic/house similar to stromae
whatever john mayer is
hip-hop like digable planets, Pete Rock & C.L Smooth, Queen Latifah
R&B like [[Sade, Kevon Edmonds, Jill Scott, Goapele...
music in european languages (kaizers orchestra), bis, zalvarinis, Mylene Farmer)
countryish (rascal flatts, dixie chicks, randy travis, alan jackson)
i like a tiny bit of j-pop. and j-rock. not much at all though, because i find asian languages dysphonic as hell.
MOVIES: hm. that's more difficult to answer. one of my favorites is no reservations. boys don't cry, august rush, factory girl, evening, talk to me, the avengers movie and avengers: age of ultron. the collection. you're next. now is good. Saw.
FOOD: zesty/"southwestern" food. my mom's gumbo. tomato basil soup. zucchini. pizza. salmon teriyaki. artisan cheeses.
(did you really read this far? i might quiz you.)
books. movies. words. music. lists. my mom. structure. organization in chaos. the ability to think. fingers. cameras. notebooks to write in. black ink pens. stationery to write letters. choices. kinky people. let's be honest, some small amount of alcohol (while my consumption has decreased considerably, i am still what i am).
how i want to decorate my apartment.
whether i will ever fall into feeling like i am a part of any of the -isms of the modern day, or will i just forever feel alone in some ways?
why it's necessary to not feel alone in one's beliefs and values.
how to transcend the need to not be alone in one's beliefs and values.
my strange fear of people's reactions to my opinions, especially since i refuse to change those opinions so that i don't have to fear opinion...? contradiction, seems like. how can a person be terrified of people's opinions of their opinions, but not change their opinions to better the chances of those reactions not being negative? i make no sense even to myself. though i still won't change my opinions unless i see fit to myself.
yeah, i read a lot.
but i'm really not as awful as i imagine i am, or so i'm told.
patience: it's definitely a mandatory virtue when dealing with me in any greater capacity than being what i refer to as "hi-and-bye friends".
you're into makeup art; you can recommend me some classic literature that won't make me feel like a fucking idiot as i try to read it; you like smoking slim cigarettes in holders (or you like people who do); you do recreational drugs; you're queer or whatever; you can deal with being around somebody who often is a total fucking bitch for fairly textbook reasons--
and especially if you read more than you play video games. seriously, does anyone else read voraciously anymore? am i alone? hello? is this thing on?