This Package Contains (if any of the following describes a person in opposition to your preferred companion/fellow hellraiser, please move along):
avid reader (BOOKS > VIDEO GAMES, BOOKS / VIDEO GAMES, BOOKS. OVER. VIDEO GAMES.) anime-strongly-disliker. drinker. nonreligious. mentally ill (working on coping). NOT INTO WATCHING OR CHEERING FOR OR SPORTING MEMORABILIA FOR SPORTS.
genderqueer, NOT girl and NOT boy. please LOOK IT UP, ASK AROUND, EDUCATE YOURSELF. currently overweight. working on it (what a frustrating process good lord)
pansexual(?) (LOOK IT UP, ASK AROUND, EDUCATE YOURSELF.)
pro-choice about essentially everything, from abortion to sexual partners (including number of) to labels. (i like labels. i just don't like inaccurate labels.)
kinky switch (once more, with feeling: LOOK IT UP, ASK AROUND, EDUCATE YOURSELF.) judgmental (read: loudly opinionated, not always negatively but often.)
this list is incomplete so that you have things to learn and to give me room to add and remove as i grow/change my mind about which labels are most important to serve up first. take heed. i will not show respect or politeness whatsoever to those who do not pay attention to what is written in my profile. especially since reading is my shit so if you're too lazy to do that, well, you don't need to be trying to talk to me anyway.
i then confuse, frighten and anger myself trying to determine how to achieve that betterment.
mostly i'm working and drinking and quitting drinking and resuming drinking and reading and reading and reading and reading and
i'm sort of good at singing, writing and taking pictures too but i'm really shy about those things.
um. other than that i actually don't know. i'm loud when i'm comfortable so maybe that.
BOOKS: note: i. love. historical. fiction. especially if it's set during World War II.
love walked in.
most anne rice vampire books are a go.
a density of souls and the snow garden.
young adult fiction like sarah dessen, francesca lia block, david levithan, rachel cohn.
e.e cummings' works. the sandman series.
verses that hurt.
Poems 4 A.M.
Phoenix Poetry (Baudelaire) even though that doctor was confused that someone my age was reading it at that time.
i liked John Green before it somehow became cool. shit yeah, i'm now a hipster.
Any book featuring Aloysius Pendergast.
almost anything to do with personal perspectives of WWII-- diaries of Holocaust victims or stories dealing with the Holocaust like Number the Stars or Night or I Lived a Thousand Years or Sophie's Choice or Soldier X or...yeah, i could go for a while.
MUSIC: genres/examples (IMPORTANT: THIS IS NOT A COMPLETE LIST)
rock (tool, a perfect circle, puscifer (anything maynard james keenan touches i'll probably love), robin trower, huey lewis and the news, editors, mew, ra ra riot, the shins, dave matthews band, led zeppelin)
classical (philip glass, ottorino respighi, vivaldi)
whatever parov stelar is
electronic/house similar tostromae
whatever john mayer is
hip-hop (digable planets)
R&B like Sade, Kevon Edmonds, Jill Scott, Goapele...
music in european languages (kaizers orchestra)
countryish (rascal flatts, dixie chicks, randy travis, alan jackson)
i like a tiny bit of j-pop. and j-rock. not much at all though, because i find asian languages dysphonic as hell.
MOVIES: hm. that's more difficult to answer. one of my favorites is no reservations. boys don't cry, august rush, factory girl, evening, talk to me, the avengers movie and avengers: age of ultron. the collection. you're next. now is good. Saw.
FOOD: zesty/"southwestern" food. my mom's gumbo. tomato basil soup. zucchini. pizza. salmon teriyaki. artisan cheeses.
(did you really read this far? i might quiz you.)
books. movies. words. music. lists. my mom. structure. organization in chaos. the ability to think. fingers. cameras. notebooks to write in. black ink pens. stationery to write letters. choices. kinky people. let's be honest, some small amount of alcohol (while my consumption has decreased considerably, i am still what i am).
how i want to decorate my apartment.
whether i will ever fall into feeling like i am a part of any of the -isms of the modern day, or will i just forever feel alone in some ways?
why it's necessary to not feel alone in one's beliefs and values.
how to transcend the need to not be alone in one's beliefs and values.
my strange fear of people's reactions to my opinions, especially since i refuse to change those opinions so that i don't have to fear opinion...? contradiction, seems like.