I have chronic PTSD, ADHD, and mild agoraphobia. I've actually gotten a lot of messages telling me how dare I lie about having PTSD, from people I have never spoken to, who know literally only what my profile says about me, which says I have it. I'm not sure what reality you live in where you can diagnose people's mental illness based on a dating profile, but honestly, I hope you stay there becauese I sure as shit don't want you in my reality. Like, I guess you need to feel superior because you got diagnosed with a disorder and how dare someone you don't know you have it? Cry me a river, loser. I do not understand your mentality.
My agoraphobia is at a point where, yes, I can leave my dwelling, but I have crippling anxiety if I do not go on such a venture with a trusted friend. You will not get me to meet you somewhere unless I am having an incredibly good day. Mental illness is a tough monster. Some days I am tougher. Other days.. Other days I must lick my wounds so that I may fight again tomorrow. It takes more than love and patience and understanding to date me. It takes research. Real research, not just Googling an article or the definition of a term and calling it done. Hell, I still research my mental illness and the amount of college courses I've taken on psychology and sociology is ridiculous. I cannot tell you I am worth the effort. There are other girls out there who will be easier to love. There is darkness in me that you are better off not immersing yourself in. My aim is not to scare you away, but to give you the proper information so that you can make an informed decision. Do you take the red pill, or the blue pill?
In fairness to myself, I must also tell you the good attributes my mental illness has afforded me. Yes, you read that correctly. This is not solely a dark cave of despair.
I am an amazing listener and I have the ability to view a situation from every possible aspect. I will laugh and make jokes even as I am huddled in a ball with tears running down my face. I can gain wealth rapidly on any video game because I know how to manipulate the market. I do not seek confrontation, but nor do I back down from it when it is presented to me. I can calm a situation quickly. I will defend the defenseless, even when it's me. I have an abundance of knowledge on an exhaustive list of topics. I can fix my own computer. I can repair a motorcycle just by using Google. I forgive those who are undeserving of it because I do not deserve to carry around hatred. I do not believe spite has value. I do not stay where I am not wanted. I can sense danger. I can also sense good fortune. I am a realistic, down to earth person, but I also love to stick my head out the car window when it is pouring down snow because from that angle it looks like you're blasting through space (snow=stars). I know who I am, and not many have that particular trait.
I am on a strict regimen of prescribed medications to alleviate symptoms of these conditions but it is important for you to know that these are life long afflictions and, while I can seem perfectly normal the majority of the time, there is no cure. I need to emphasize this again for those in the back of the room. There is no cure.
These are professionally diagnosed --- self diagnosers PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU "RELATE".
I also do photography --- http://discoloredkitty.deviantart.com
and I am a writer.
I'm fat. I do not say this with self pity or for assurances to the contrary. I say this blankly, as a statement of medical fact. My pictures are not lies, but I have a belly, and I have love handles, and my thighs wiggle if I shake 'em. I am not quite on the level of the "big beautiful woman" tag, but I am a gamer, not an athlete or a gym rat. And I HATE salad.
There is no Pokemon inside of my tattoo. Because.. it's a tattoo, guys. The question is not original or clever. Sorry.
Procrastinating writing a future lifetime movie😛💸
Many doctor visits💊
Winning online arguments
Talking to my cat more than people
Convincing the world that aliens spliced us to harvest our poop 💩👽
Trying to put together a team for a game concept I have 👀
Red State got me. I accept defeat happily.
also boobs, I have those, I have a lot of those, please take some of them away, do not want, thank you
seriously though, I am a candidate for reduction surgery, and I am heavily contemplating it. When I say I have a lot of those I am not exaggerating.
Books: Divergent, Everworld, Fear Street, Harry Potter, Hunger
Games, I Am America And So Can You, The Tea Rose, Twilight, Zombie Autopsies, Zombie Survival Guide
Movies: A Knight's Tale, A Perfect Getaway, Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter, Alien, Alien Resurrection, Anchorman, Austin Powers, Behind The Mask, The Book Of Eli, Braveheart, Carriers, The Cat Returns, Catching Fire, Chicago, Contagion, Crazy Stupid Love, Dark Knight, Dark Knight Rises, The Day After Tomorrow, Enchanted, Erin Brockovich, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Fifth Element, Fight Club, The Fourth Kind, Frozen, Hunger Games, In Time, The Incredibles, John Q, Juno, Jurassic Park, Kill Bill, The Matrix, Men In Tights, Mockingjay, Monsters VS. Aliens, Monty Python And The Holy Grail, The Mummy Returns, My Cousin Vinny, National Treasure, Nausicaa, No Strings Attached, Now You See Me, Perfume, Pirates Of The Caribbean, Pretty Woman, Princess Bride, Prometheus, Public Enemies, The Purge, Push, Repo: The Genetic Opera, Resident Evil, Role Models, Serenity, The Silence Of The Lambs, Spirited Away, Star Wars, Stepbrothers, Superbad, Taken, Tangled, V For Vendetta, Walk Hard, Wanted, Where The Heart Is, Yes Man
Shows: American Horror Story, Ancient Aliens, Angel, Archer, Arrested Development, Arrow, Awkward, Bates Motel, Better Off Ted, Bunheads, Californication, Camelot, Castle, Charmed, The Colbert Report, Community, Continuum, The Daily Show, Dexter, Dirt, Dollhouse, Eureka, Falling Skies, Family Guy, Firefly, Fruits Basket, Futurama, Game of Thrones, Glee, Gilmore Girls, Girls, The Good Wife, Gossip Girl, Haven, Hellcats, Homeland, Heroes, House, House Of Cards, Inuyasha, Jane By Design, Jericho, The Killing, Lost, Lost Girl, Mad Men, Merlin, Modern Family, Nashville, Once Upon A Time, Pokémon, Prison Break, Revenge, Revolution, Ringer, Scrubs, The Secret Circle, Secret Diary Of A Call Girl, Shameless, Sherlock, Smallville, South Park, Spartacus, Storage Wars, Suburgatory, Switched At Birth, True Blood, Two And A Half Men, V, The Vampire Diaries, Veronica Mars, Walking Dead, Weeds
Music: 3OH!3, A Change Of Pace, A Day To Remember, The Airborne Toxic Event, An Horse, Armor For Sleep, Blink 182, Brand New, Brandon Flowers, Bright Eyes, Cloud Cult, CKY, Coheed And Cambria, Crash Test Dummies, Cute Is What We Aim For, Digital Daggers, The Dresden Dolls, Emery, The Faint, Fight Like Apes, Fiona Apple, Foxy Shazam, The Fratellis, Frou Frou, Getter Jaani, Goo Goo Dolls, Guster, Hellogoodbye, Hollywood Undead, Hot Hot Heat, The Hush Sound, JamisonParker, The Jealous Sound, Jonathan Coulton, The Joy Formidable, The Juliana Theory, Kill Paradise, The Kooks, La Roux, Mae, Marina And The Diamonds, Meatloaf, Metric, Mindless Self Indulgence, My American Heart, My Chemical Romance, Nirvana, Our Lady Peace, Panic! At The Disco, Paramore, Pearl Jam, The Postal Service, Rise Against, The Rocket Summer, Saint Vincent, Saliva, Sarina Paris, Say Anything, Senses Fail, She Wants Revenge, Shiny Toy Guns, Sick Of Sarah, The Spill Canvas, Straylight Run, Streetlight Manifesto, Sugarcult, Taking Back Sunday, The Tea Party, Tegan & Sara, Three Days Grace, Tracy Chapman, Utada Hikaru, Vendetta Red, Walter Meego, Weezer, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Games: Anna, Ark, Bioshock, DDR, Devil May Cry, Donkey Kong, Dungeon Defenders, Earthworm Jim, Fallout 4, Fallout Shelter, Forsaken World, Freddi Fish, GaiaOnline, Gang Beast, Gex, Goat Simulator, Habbo Hotel, Harvest Moon, Highgrounds, Huniecam Studio, Huniepop, King Kaiju, Kingdom Hearts, League of Legends, Life Is Strange, Mario, Moon Hunters, Neopets, Outlaws, Overcooked, Pacman, Pilotwings, Plants VS Zombies, Pogo, Pokémon, Project Zomboid, Puzzle Quest, Realm of the Mad God, Recettear, Road Rash, Rune Factory 2, RuneScape, Rusty Hearts, Sims, Terraria, Tetris Attack, Torchlight 2, Triple Town, Uniracers, Workemon, World Of Warcraft, Zelda
LISTEN HERE, FRIENDO.
I LIKE ME SOME ALIENS, MONSTERS, ZOMBIES, DINOSAURS, VAMPIRES, MST3K, RELATABLE NERDS, COMPETITIVE GAMES BUT NOT SHOOTERS OR PLATFORMERS, AND I WILL PLAY OR WATCH ANYTHING THAT MAKES POOP FUNNY.
Playing Shop Heroes and questioning why I'm playing Shop Heroes.
Eating all of the cookies.
I've eaten pizza off the floor
92 is half of 99👌👌
You tear up everytime you watch this video, because I full on sob no matter how many times I've seen it.