okay so here's the deal. I was raised super anti-socially so I suck at social interaction, but my head is full of adventures. I'd love company to laze around doing crafts with or to go to strange places and gallivant around nature with, but I need the tender compassion you might afford a fumbling infant- I am just that unaware of the world. I'm burgeoning with inner feeling but fail catastrophically when it comes to social banter. And contrary to how pseudo-cocky that sounds, I don't consider myself knowledgeable or particularly intelligent. I'm just a goofball who prefers emotional things and reflective environments, like misty forests, where the existential chasm housed inside of me can be calmed. I swear I rarely talk like this, except when putting my feelings into written word =\
for a rough idea of the things I like, visit my pinterest: www.pinterest.com/sachijane
because who wouldn't prefer pretty pictures over reading a profile.
I'm INFP & 4w5 on the enneagram, google it for an almost perfect description of me :)
◣books-- I mostly just read about humans on the internet. otherwise it's hard sci-fi, existentialist crap (sartre, dostoevsky, nietzsche), fantasy etc
◣music-- electro swing, chiptunes, jazz, glitchy stuff, classical, anything that sounds like an elliot smith + the books + venetian snares + 65daysofstatic + anamanaguchi collaboration? I can listen to anything from mogwai to vlad cochet, but often prefer quiet.
◣movies-- mary and max, lilja 4-ever, any emotionally compelling independent film or visually compelling sci-fi
◣shows-- true detective, louie, tim & eric, lost, always sunny, any interesting documentaries [attenboroguh 4 lyf] etc
◣food-- sashimi. I get excited by buying exotic ingredients I've never seen before and conducting numerous, sometimes edible, experiments with them.
-how I could help people around me be happier
-how doomed humanity is
-how much I'd prefer a fantasy reality
-how amazed I am at how stupid humans can be
-how I wish I could fix the world and then,
-how chaotic the universe really is ..and then,
-what new dessert I could learn to make
I've had social anxiety since I was a kid and I've never really found anyone who can relate.
I used to sleep with an anatomical model of a heart, because it was my teddybear equivalent.
..and this is what happens when I'm depressed of late:
(if you see the shameful depth of my modding and still want to message me, then you probably should)
also, I've found that I can't handle people with big egos because I've never had one and I don't understand how they work.
please don't message me if you like Glee.