When I was in college, I came across a time-lapse video on YouTube of a barbecue in Texas. Partway through the video, the Milky Way can be clearly seen arcing through the night sky. I was confused. I thought you needed a telescope to see the Milky Way. But nope: turns out the Milky Way is huge and easily visible in many parts of the world, and I'd just never seen it because of light pollution.
I felt like a character from a dystopian novel about a future where everybody lives underground because the surface of the Earth is too radioactive. I toil in my underground drudgery day in and day out, going to underground school and eating underground food, until one day someone shows me an illegal video of the surface. In that video, they tell me, you can see something called the Sun, and it is the brightest thing.
I felt like something beautiful and natural had been stolen from me, so thoroughly that I never even knew it was there, and to my shame I still haven't gotten it back.
Do you desperately need something that you don't have? What is it? Are you eating ice cubes? What about dirt?