***before we start...if you look at my profile and don't message me, I pretty much assume you decided I wasn't for you. If you looked at my stuff and liked it, you'd message me right? You can say something simple, like "I like your stuff". Anyway, I'm weird, I know that. If you look and don't message I just assume our weird factors don't align. Also, I'm a mom. I'm a bit curvy. Don't bother if you aren't into real because that's what I am, real. ***
I was told by a boy today that I am a cross between the nerdy chipette with glasses from Alvin and the chipmunks and the old school bat girl...and I think that's a compliment.
Music is mandatory.
Fulfillment is necessary.
Joy is irrevocable.
Intellectual stimulation is sexy.
Love is liberalized.
I want to............
Go play at the park, or walk around the city and be silly. I want to yell in the street because I just can't contain my joy, and you find it endearing that I have a hard time talking about myself at times, in the beginning. I want to talk about the world. How we see it, what makes us happy, what we question, what we want to run from, but we don't because we know what that feeling really is.
I want to look inside your head. And I want to see you. I want to grab some fruit at the store and run around the mall laughing at the illusions and ridiculously saddening truths this world holds, because sometimes I just need to laugh a little, probably to keep from crying when I hold the cold hard truth up and take a good look. I want to hear about how you see it. I want to learn and learn, never stop learning because it feels so good and because we have all the time in the world. And one day, I wanna come across someone who can really look at me and see...me.
I spend a lot of time contemplating the universe.
I also make a lot of art. Lots of mediums. Right now window markers and chalk are my favorites.
I'm AWAKE. I am committed to staying that way.
Learning a lot, about anything at all.
Trying to see it from every side.
Wanting to know more.
I'm also awkward in an endearing way, I'm told.
I read, listen to, and eat almost anything.
Books: The Giving Tree, The Giver, Bhaghavd Gita, Maus I and II, Persepolis, Johnny the Homicidal maniac, Dante's Inferno, The Spirit Catches You and You Fall Down, The Beauty Trilogy, anything Vonnegut, Alan Watts, many, many more. I am a bibliophile. I find the library to be an extremely sexy place. Ask me about what I am reading now, if you want.
Music: Sublime, Dropkick Murphy's, Radiohead, Audioslave, Placebo, Pharcyde, Roots, Blue Scholars, Death Cab, Tupac, Atmosphere, Bob Marley, Orange Street, Johnny Cash, The Beatles, Counting Crows, A Tribe Called Quest, Cage the Elephant, Mumford and Sons, Lumineers, the swell season, Kat edmonson, dispatch....the list is honestly endless, and these are the ones I feel like hearing RIGHT NOW. I am also really into electronic music.
Movies: Reservoir Dogs, The Fifth Element, I heart huckabees, Secretary, Kill Bill, Superbad, Brick, the orphanege to name a few.
Food: Yes, I eat it, and it tastes good. I am pretty much a vegetarian with vegan tendencies who wants to be totally vegan. Thai food is capable of causing me to make little happy noises while I eat.
I use my tv for movies, and that's it.
**if you put air, food, or water here, we might have VERY different views of the world. I believe it's assumed we all need air food and water. Or maybe you are insinuating your needs are few? Explain it to me :) **
How puzzling this world is.
How alluring the female form is.
I am probably checking out some live music, or having an intense debate about the existence of unicorns, or building the best damn pillow fort you have ever seen, or perhaps stomping around in puddles, or lying around naked, wondering when I will encounter a lover who is able to look into my soul.....
The mediocrity of the surface level life most people are ok with makes me want to scream.
You like 'em smart and silly.
You have something you want to teach me.
You are willing to at least have a drink/coffee/lunch/dinner/english tea/a duel or SOMETHING before you try and get into my pants.
You want to play with me!
You want to...
You are awake, and you know what I mean by that.
If you fancy the idea of playing long term relationship/house like one day a week. We eat, watch a movie, or have an adventure, we hold hands and kiss, maybe we fuck, and we do it again next week. I don't know if this sounds fun or crazy but I think about it sometimes. Like a part time partner?
I want to learn and grow all the time, I want to be challenged. If you see the world a little differently and think that we could improve it, we might get along. If you spend more time examining your head, heart, and motives than you do shopping, you're off to a good start. If the grocery store makes you uncomfortable, we've probably got a few things in common :). If you enjoy intellectual intercourse, lets get together and do it! If you want to know more, please ask.
And, finally, a word about monogamy.....let's just say I don't require it. I also don't have any issues with it if I'm being sexually fulfilled by my partner. Relationships come in all forms and are unique. I'm not jealous or particular. I also don't identify directly with any one category. My honest feelings so far, having tried just about every kind of relationship:
Monogamy is fun, but in my experience it can put a strain on two people to be each other's "everything". We weren't made for this, it's why we have friends and family. It takes a village. When done right with the right person, monogamy is beautiful.
Polyamory is also fun, in my experience it can lead to relationships ultimately being more casual/less intimate. Also, multiple lovers means multiple opportunities for drama. Also, many people say they aren't jealous when they are. When done right with the right people, polyamory is magical.
At the end of the day, be monogamous or poly. I don't mind. But know why and state it clearly. Being aware of how you feel and open/honest with your communication are the most important things to me.