When I was little I genuinely thought I was psychic because I had a knack of knowing how other people think and felt. I figured out later that I am just very receptive to body language, subtleties in tone, and facial expressions. Since I'm constantly putting myself in others' shoes, I find it easy to appreciate just about everyone I come across. Now I'm a lot more skeptical on my "psychic powers".
I'm an HSP (highly sensitive person), which basically means I have a sensitive nervous system. I'm acutely aware of subtleties in my surroundings and am more easily overwhelmed when in highly stimulating environments like amusement parks or parties. Life in general can be more mentally and physically draining than for non-HSPs. Before I learned to deal with it, one could usually find me hiding in a closet or tucked away in a corner trying to hide from everything.
Regardless of this, I find public speaking very easy and almost look forward to it sometimes. This puzzles me because I generally don't like the proverbial spotlight. I spent a lot of my childhood performing and touring nationally and internationally, so that's probably what quashed my stage fright.
I push myself into trying new things... things I even predict that I won't like. I don't like assuming I can't do something just because the thought of it makes me uneasy.
I'm atheist and agnostic (which, by the way, don't necessarily exclude each other). I am still learning, but I've come to a point where telling others that I'm 'atheist' gives me a sense of freedom I've never felt before. I am very much interested in seeing this country distance itself further from dogma-related policy.
Although seemingly contradicting, I have fairly high self-confidence but very low self-image. I won't allow others to take advantage of me, but I don't think of myself very well. That is one thing I've been actively working on lately.
Right now I don't know what I want to do with my life. I spent a good deal of time working towards being a music teacher. Then due to unfortunate circumstances I moved and changed my course of study to music therapy. I was a few semesters away from a degree and licensing, but I felt lost regardless. A bit of a quarter-life crisis, I suppose.
Wow, I sound like a catch, so far, huh? If you're brave, forge onward.
I'd really love to develop some more friendships. I have a couple close-ish friends, but not many I can really talk to about what is in my heart. So few people have the kind of patience and emotional intelligence it takes to crack into my heart. But I'd love to be able to get to know some more people and understand and support them in return.
I suppose I'm quite good at lending my ears and shoulders. And I give hugs readily.
Analyzing poetry, I guess... at least better than some...
I make one heck of a mean lasagna. No really. It will berate you.
I have fairly strong hands and I use them on friends and family to ease their achy muscles. I'm pretty sure I've massaged strangers now that I think of it.
Taking in all of the groceries into the house in one trip... or grudgingly in two.
Finding and enjoying the humor in everyday events or things.
Physically... I'm overweight (or curvy or whatever women like to call themselves). I used to have long brown hair and then a buzz cut... but now it's growing out to a length somewhere in between. I wear casual clothes almost always. I wear glasses some of the time. I wear flip flops if barefoot is not possible. I sometimes like to get away with flip flops in the winter too. My feet want to be freeeee!
Movies: Good Will Hunting, V for Vendetta, The Piano, A Knight's Tale, The Shawshank Redemption, Gattaca, Little Miss Sunshine, Everything Is Illuminated, What Dreams May Come, Hannibal, New Moon, A Fish Called Wanda, Sophie's Choice, Snowcake, Harold and Maude, Contact, The Saint, Lawrence of Arabia, The Order, Dirty Dancing, Up
TV Shows: Star Trek: TNG, Law & Order: Special Victims Unit, House, Rurouni Kenshin, Avatar, American Dad, Futurama, Daily Show, How I Met Your Mother
Music: Eric Whitacre, The Phantom of the Opera, Kathleen Edwards, Carmina Burana, Adagio for Strings by Barber, Antonin Dvorak, Hopewell, Badly Drawn Boy, Camille Saint-Saens, Teitur, Gustav Mahler, Susanne Sundfor, Wild Clover Band, Z Randall Stroope, Stephen Speaks, Tchaikovsky, Peter, Paul and Mary, Imogen Heap, Dido, James Blunt, Coldplay, Johnny Cash, MIKA, Josh Groban, Norah Jones, Johnny Flynn, Robert Pattinson (believe it or not, his music is pretty awesome).
Food: Broccoli and Ice Cream... but never broccoli ice cream
-Fans (the air-blowing type, not the admiring masses type)
-My prescribed medicine
-Pets or animals of some type (Once I chased around pigeons in Germany because I was going through pet-withdrawal.)
-Internet access at home
I guess another thing I do in my head a lot is playing devil's advocate. Its a quick way of getting to the gray areas of concepts. I believe the truth almost always is located somewhere other than pure black or white.
I like to make stories up in my head about people when I have time sitting somewhere or waiting in traffic. I give elaborate back stories, problems, goals, etc. to them.
I naturally have always paid a lot of attention to marketing and advertisements. Corporations spend millions or billions trying to make consumers want their products. I'm fascinated by the subject of neuromarketing. People are paid top dollar to come up with ways to fool our brain into craving or accepting. Most of my life I've generally been able to observe how most people receive information. I'm pretty sure I'd rock out in that field. But. It's evil. Especially the stuff that makes people do or purchase out of fear or out of feeling inferior. I could never make a living on fooling people to part with their money and live with myself.
Oh yeah, and how can I be a 95% match and 45% friend to some people.... what????
Eventually I want to carry a baby. I don't know yet if I want children... but I have an incredible desire to carry a baby to term. I would love to serve as a surrogate for one of my close friends or family in the case they aren't able to.
Oh! And I have a strange predilection for sinewy forearms and hands. And add a piano keyboard or other instrument to the end of said sinewy forearms and I may become a puddle.
Aside from that... Message me if you really think we could get along from what I've written here. Honestly, I'm fascinated by all people. However, the point of me putting this out here is to find some like-minded friends. So.... if you don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs, don't party (or do so in moderation) and like interaction in smallish gatherings with fun and open-minded people... I'd love to hear from you. Or one-on-one talking or chatting has also interested me from time to time. Also, I really get along well with people who are not biased against sex, orientation, race, etc, etc, etc. Message me if.... you like board games... or good movies.... or picnics... or if you like going to thrift stores for no reason in particular... or if you like throwing dinner parties... or if you're open to teaching me about things you are passionate about..... if you like going to find great music in the community... if you want to paint on my piano.... if you want to play my piano for living-room concerts... if you play an instrument or sing and want to sing with me.... I can sing anywhere from soprano to tenor lit.. if you want to go stargazing or if the idea of spontaneously taking road trips sounds awesome... message me!!! I am an open book to the right people... I want to make some lifelong friendships. :)