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My self-summary
Returning here from being away for awhile. The pictures aon here are old. I basically look a little older and hope am a little wiser.I am going to take this slow. Friends first. Questing and questioning. The eternal student. In-sane(in the best sense of the world)! Not afraid to be different. Unconventional spirituality. Multi-layered personality. Honest to a fault. Always wishing to discover new and exciting things. Contraries... I love (I refuse to underline or bracket) rough hewn works of art and poetry, handwritten letters ,unedited! pencil smudges, ink stains and tear smears! Handmade pottery. Any creation that someone takes the energy to create. It does not necessarily mean they took time but time "took them", in the sense there was a cumulative effect in the making. Or not and is just Raw and Real! I'm not real hip on gadgets such as ipods, cell phones etc these new gizmos like the computer. Maybe because my dad always had to have the latest electronic device and I felt he could have spent the money on us kids. On the other hand I was using his calculator when the kids in my class had slide rules. Huh? I KNOW -I AM old! I love libraries and the old card catalogues that used to be in them or just walking through stacks loading my arms up with books. I love plants and gardens and wild flowers and nature that is not a tourist attraction. I like walking without going anywhere but here.

I dislike people who pretend to be something they are not; lies told with the intention to harm or as a sick game to prey upon peoples emotions; judge mental people who have no idea who I am and cast me or others away before even seeing. I dislike ISMs..

I am introspective, and creative

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What I’m doing with my life
Living it as best as I can ! . Writing , reading, being. Seeking (it is more the journey than the final destination) and ??????????
I’m really good at
Listening. Knowing what I want but not knowing how to get it. Sometimes knowing how to get it and enjoying IT! Living what I believe in but always questioning those beliefs. Once upon a times which are really nows in continuum thread circle theory...(or some tribal and mythical beliefs). My own art forms that are seemingly formless at times but which may lead to who knows what uni-multi-verses.
The first things people usually notice about me
My world full of wonder eyes. My smile. That I "think" too much (as opposed to what not thinking at all)? Sorry to the people who "get it" (not to imply "it" is an object) but I need to have some form of clarity here...? I use lots of runon sentences and bad PUNctuation but I am generally an intelligent person. I am different. I have had a difficult life but have survived it and am kind, loving and giving.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I don't have favorites, however I like the unusual ,the surreal and the naked truth in my taste of books,movies and music. I like distopian and utopian , Sci -Fi , myths and creation stories, anything to do with mind or emotion,dreaming or being. I will read most anything but find most popular fiction extremly trite. I am currently reading The Anti American Manifesto. I am also reading what I just picked off the shelf at the thrift store and my own book....A Side EFFECT OF the Medication or MultipliCities.

I have I don't watch movies often. I like non mainstream and foreign films, some sci-fi very little horror (except old monster movies). I do like old black and white and film noir because the light and shadow are beautiful not to mention scenery and plot. I am not really a special effects kind of person, though they can be cool looking. I like movies that have plots! I dislike (mort)( action slam bam movies. As for t.v. take it or leave it except for P.B.S. Examples of shows I love StarTrek, Coppers, Murdoch Mysteries and The Big Bang Theory. It's not the size of the t.v. that matters ;) I would rather read unless I was too tired! That is the sorry advantage of "the idiot box" you can just stare at it without much motivation on your part! I love books made of paper, albums over C.D.S !

I like most music except some types of rap. As for food I donot eat meat . No fish or chicken or anything bloody ! Want to go vegan again... You can eat whatever you want but if you are with me please don't try to force me ! I'm tired of trying to explain the whoile philosophy of it. I don't judge you please don't judge me...

Ahhhhhhhh the discovery of Babylon 5 ! Lots of other discoveries like THE BIG Lebowski and a return to the classics both books music and movies but a refound love for the cutting edge of now!
Six things I could never do without
A sense of humor, children, nature , my hidden side, dreams, quiet time!!!!!!!!
I spend a lot of time thinking about
QUESTions?????? WHY am I here instead of There? Why I push myself into running so far that I can't run at all. Just Where am I ? What is my purpose? Why I can never sleep. Composing poetry and not writing it down. Creating art out of emptiness. The life of animals and how much they mean to me. Birds singing, elephants crying, small insects that people swat without realizing they are living beings. How everything is made up of energy ... LETTING GO.............. Finding something worthwhile to hold onto.
Creating a new family with friends. Knowing I have more courage than I ever thought! Laughing and Living more fully. That my tragedy is a comedy if I reverse it and I'm not dead yet! Never under estimate me! I am full of surprises. I am funny. I want to be an actress and think I'd be damn good at it even if I'm old so DISCOVER me . Letting my insides OUT!
On a typical Friday night I am
. WOW! I never knew that time was so timeless. Looking for those stars that are not only wishable but dreams come true. Making light in the darkness.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I am most likely different than any other person you have met. I am loving and caring but I am learning I DESERVE the same in return. That you have not lived my life so please DO NOT JUDGE ME!
That I've misjudged myself far too often and it's time for me to shine again . That the talents that were stolen are only dormant! Watch out when I awaken. I breathe elements!
I dream realities! That my body is the vehicle for this world and I'm still learning how to drive it! . That sharpnesss and fire can be played with but if it's out of control then learn discipline and patience ! That I LOVE. Pure and , simple and complex a conundrum that puzzles me yet but don't we all have a few missing pieces and isn't it more fun NOT knowing it all!
You should message me if
You know how to respect women and other living beings.
I am NOT looking for a one night stand or BDSM.

I do have a sense of humour however so don't be afraid. I bite only when I know you enough and if you want me to! I'm not looking for someone who wants to "cheat " on their mate. If you IM me and find you don't like me please be decent enough to say goodbye so I don't wonder if you got cut off and bother you again. Please do not send me the same form letter you send every other woman on here, it is insulting! Be patient. I like to write and get to know you.
If you are not too arrogant to know everyone has something to teach and learn! I NEVER want to be cheated on again! COMMUNICATION and patience and RESPECT .Don't ASSUME anything about me! Many people do and usually the assumptions are incorrect! If you understand how lucky you are and about class consciousness and being authentic and REAL...If you know how to dream with your eyes open :) Ok...this is long but humour me...pleas please?!
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